And I open that toilet to piss and I see that unflushed shit floating there half dissolved and spreading out like a virus through the water and the disintegrating toilet paper and I know without doubt that this is metaphor for how I live, what I’ve let my life become; - festering, unflushed, rank, unnecessary and evident of a laziness or an absence of mind so fiercely unchecked that a check is beyond too far evident of requiring that checkmate